dissed. ditched. dumped. ducked.
29.2.12
28.2.12
pricks like a thorn #2
25.2.12
mumsies
are they not?
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aku tidak tahu apakah memang ada rasa yang belum ternamai untuk dia. namun jika memang ternyata ada, tolong kabulkan keinginanku ini.
aku masih akan sering datang kepadamu. meski tanpa ritual. terima kasih.
amin.
23.2.12
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mungkin ini cara tuhan menyentil bahuku, setelah terlalu lama sibuk tanpa peduli dengan kabarnya, maupun perasaannya. tapi, tuhan, jangan ambil kegesitannya dulu, jangan ambil dia sekarang. juga jangan biarkan ia terbebani dengan kami yang terlalu ia sayangi. aku tahu aku tidak akan setegar dia, jika dia pergi. aku lebih kuat menampik tuntutan orang lain terhadap kami, daripada melihatnya berusaha tegar meskipun diam-diam sedih dan tertekan, kasihan terhadap kami yang tidak juga berumahtangga.
jadi, tuhan, berilah dia sedikit ketegaran, kesehatan dan kesabaran, untuk melalui berbagai musim pernikahan yang mungkin tidak akan pernah menjadi sebuah perayaan di keluarga kami.
amin.
22.2.12
pricks like a thorn #1
it was a cold
21.2.12
of peacock and rainbow
so, yes, we're not marc jacobs or alexander mcqueen, but now that i think about it, being nicely dressed does bring good feelings.
thank you.
20.2.12
sendiri sebentar lagi
nanti, kalau i memutuskan untuk tidak cepat-cepat pulang dari eropa, w berangkat ke amerika untuk kuliah dan tinggal di sana selama dua tahun dan mungkin tidak ingin cepat-cepat pulang juga, lalu u tidak juga dapat pekerjaan dan terpaksa tinggal kembali dengan orangtuanya di banyuwangi atau kakaknya di mojokerto, dan r yang sengaja menenggelamkan diri dalam pekerjaannya di subang meneliti tikus-tikus, atau m yang hanya available setelah gajian atau orangtuanya sehat atau sedang tidak kumat darah tingginya, serta l selalu sibuk bepergian untuk senang-senang;
18.2.12
plong
yeah. i missed that.
17.2.12
when your plow is pencil
in some countries it would be wise to know what property value more, so you will know what and what not to hit.
i was talking nonsense with a colleague about our other colleague who just got an accident and broke his arm after hitting a herd of cows in an empty road to
i felt sorry because i know him a bit too well, but i also could not help not to laugh. mostly because in papua, people say that if you hit a living thing, the owner will ask you for money based on how many udders that being has. so, hitting a human is cheaper than hitting a pig. but hitting a pig is more expensive than any other animals, because it is a valuable property that worth more than, say, a house. and hitting female pig is worse because it is considered as a source of trustfund for its ability to breed piglets. therefore hitting a pig which is pregnant could be the worst, because not only we have to pay for the pig but also for its dead unborn piglets.
then an expat colleague joined the conversation. she said that in
15.2.12
raja gombal
if you say my eyes are beautiful, it's because they're looking at you..
if you wonder why i'm smiling, it's because i'm happy with you..
if you say my eyes are beautiful, it's because i love you so..
-jermaine
14.2.12
by the way's (11)
and while i cannot finish reading the devil wears prada or shoppaholic's series, i feel the constant longing for rereading orwell's keep the aspisdystras flying and chuck palahniuk's books since snuff. but, i did go through one day until the end and had once felt romanced up by can you keep a secret.
is it normal for a girl to prefer what i preferred? or am i just a snob for having different preferences?
12.2.12
not in the sandbox
now i can cross 'you' on my accomplished list.
11.2.12
by the way's (10)
but i'm not sure i could afford 2 millions a month for the first six months of maintenance. or walk her for 10 minutes a day every day. at least not at this stage.
note to self (21)
10.2.12
there is no try
maka, saya suka heran jika ada orang yang menolak melakukan sesuatu karena dia merasa bergender a atau bergender b. kalau saya bisa, kenapa orang lain tidak?
blue skies gone gray
i honestly love the taste of muesli –or birdseeds as my friends refer to– with yoghurt. i never eat it to lose weight or anything like that. i eat anything that makes me comfortable. and muesli with yoghurt always brings me back to that particular time on the plane from frankfurt to
i guess i am one of those people who are too worried about the future, walked past the present like a ghost, and dwelled too much in the past.
8.2.12
fuck off
i told you about every one of them because i know you freaked out when people say things about us. it is my way of telling you to relax. just because everybody suggested something, does not mean things will go that way. by now i am very much accustomed with people freaking out when they are related to me. i just want you to know that despite what people say, i don’t want to spend the rest of my life with you. so, don't worry. i wasn’t sure about it then, but i am now. you have my word and if i can't keep my word, a hundred kids deserve a treat of free meal.
7.2.12
his words (2)
-on our visit to the hospital today. get well soon, pak bun-
6.2.12
a new low
if this is not sad, i don't know what is.
4.2.12
go screw yourself
but in this world, my feelings don't count, right?
1.2.12
problems of the world #3
isn't there a bit of guilt when you deal more with paying the subscription of cable tv or fussing over a white shirt or family vacation rather than focusing on giving inputs for the presentation? which is more important, the lives of tens of people deprived of their basic rights or you getting two free nights in bali? would you give up your chance of paid holiday for a visit to the field to deal with extremists?
yeah. i thought so too.
gerutu (15)
ini apa-apaan, sih? ditugaskan itu artinya dipekerjakan. datang untuk bekerja. bukan datang, lalu ingin mesin cuci dengan air panas agar baju putih tetap putih. atau ribut mencari tukang jahit. bagianmu itu mengurusi orang hilang dan ditahan.