big girls ain't supposed to cry, if you do i'll understand..

i questioned myself of being sociopath

not only because changeling and oprah reruns

used it many times that day,

but most of all because

i went on with angels and demons

when i should have gone home and mourned,

even after i learned you were gone.

the flashing thoughts of how they must have felt

should have aggravated mine;

but you see, i could never discern,

whether these are of condolence or

a mere selfishness

yet, somehow, to some extent

i do miss you,

and wished it never happened.

or at least i had been more prepared.

 

24.05.2009