lustfool

sebenarnya, kau mau aku seperti apa? fooling around is fun, but it's also a handfull. aku tidak merasa tertekan, even when i don't have your number. itu pilihanku. untuk tidak menyimpan nomormu. and your choice for keeping mine, but not to dial it. which i respect and admire. aku tidak akan seteguh itu. i inboxed you on facebook to fix my glasses, didn't i. and was happy that you responded in less than half an hour. i was still in jogja then. mereka semua sengaja ku cc. i would lose my guard if it were only subjected to you. but then again i need to know if you still care for me. entah untuk apa. maybe i will always miss you. karena kamulah orang dewasa pertama dan mungkin satu-satunya yang membuatku merasa penting dan dihargai. you also make me feel loved and wanted. jadi, selelah dan serumit apapun bersama atau tanpamu, i don't think i'll ever mind.

i hope i can gradually learn to stop all this wishful thinking. karena kata narasumber rachael ray tadi siang, it's okay not to be happy.