to those who between my chest and your fragrance*

why are you by yourself?

siapa yang tahu. apalagi peduli. lagipula, kamu juga sendiri.

but, we have been watching each other, then.

tentu saja. saya, tak tahu mengapa, tidak bisa berpaling.

tacky. is that even true?

dengarlah apa saja yang kau percaya.

then see what your eyes want to see.

tidak ada yang memaksa. saya. kamu. semua boleh melamun.

and create whatever they want to believe in their heads?

asal jangan biarkan orang lain tahu.

so, people won't think we're missing chemicals in our brain?

kamu pintar juga ternyata.

hell, yeah. that's what people told me since i'm not goodlooking.

memangnya itu lebih penting?

not more than being goodlooking, at least.

lalu mengapa saya perlu berlagak mikir padahal diam-diam mencuri pandang?

i really don't know. maybe it's all in the minds. yours. mine.

otak sepandai itu? punyamu, mungkin. saya?

honestly. i have no idea. but i enjoy the fact that you turn your heads.

untuk menatapmu sekilatan?

no. just to find my face among the others.

tapi saya tidak akan pernah berani lebih dari mencari.

that's okay. i'll wait until you do. even if you don't. i'll understand.

michael jackson, bukan?

ah. you noticed. very good. i never thought you'd recognize.

sama sepertimu. tidak rupawan. mungkin memang harus pintar.

you're funny too. and have a funny laugh. at least in my head you do.

bisakah itu menjadi lebih penting?

again. i don't have the answer. but this alone i enjoy.

saya harus pergi. berpaling ke wajah-wajah lain. yang mungkin tidak akan saya nikmati.

go. just promise me you will keep glancing every now and again.

dan melanjutkan obrolan kita ini. katanya. mata jendela hati. dan mungkin pikiran.

corny. still. i hope they are. i had a good time talking to you. i hope you are too.

 

17.16.15.06.09 tertabur*